Time for complete honesty.

Honesty iseasy online, cause you just shut of the comuter and walk away, perections and all, and no judgement is ever as true or harsh as real ones. almost everything can be masked or irnored, I've had great teachers there. This life is about avoiding immediate condequence, but I know that it will cme there is no escaping it.

ok, in real life I would never admit t this, but when I appear in deep thought about somethng and others wonder what i'm thinking, am thinking about what I lok like I am thinkimng, and try to think of smething that will never be guessed.

Lately I have seriously considered

Time out for another movie. OH! this one makes me mad, too, another love triangle or nt really that, but where a girl gets sick and gets to die instead of having to choose a love, I guess that's The popular opinion as to how it should go. It hasn't helped me one whit, I just want to know what someone else thinks the proper thing to do is, hen I could judge, but I only see that no one dares to make a choice only recognoize the trouble of trying to decide between loves, s hey choose death, too. The first movie, 1970's version of wuthering heights, Catherine just decided to die, so I guess I could chpose that, but why that seems foolish, I won't make that choice. I've come too far.

I have learned that there really are no bounderies, i can love anyone I just need to commit to it. But it is so hard when I have so may good choices. it is alot like music. today I realized that I like too many song, not juast like, that word isn't strong enough, but it is a curse, I admire people who are loimited in their influences or goals. they keep focus, me? I just flop around doing what suits my fancy and expect to progress somehow? It seems insane.

I promised to love Brandall nd could never have foreseen his change of mind, but itsall good. just proves a natural priciple that you shouldn't count your chickens before they hatch, but I think a bit or promises kept would do me good. I want to know tha somethings are permanent. Even my health was unpredictable. first I was heathy, hen BOOM! I was going to die of some rare condition, then BOOM again I'm healthy and recoverying nicely.