It attracts you at first then drives you away.

I am too tired to write right now, and I would hate to forget this thought. I wanted to write a long post about how alluring Mormonism is, and likely that is what draws people to Utah, like that survey I took years ago about where in Utah I wanted to live, and how I excitedly told my mom how I longed so much to be with others who believe  like me. I was referring to being "Mormon". But, similarities cease in so many cases at the surface... It is nice to be among good happy people, but although they do the same things as I do and have the same results, truth is I still lack that true connection with others. We are made to need compassion and understanding.

Do nothing

Often, I think that I want nothing to change and so I do nothing. Like when you have one of those monents where you feel all is right with the world the way it is, and so no matter how you got there, you are perfectly content where you are and You want nothing to ruin that moment, although, doing a thing might actually enrich the future. All that matters is that nothing changes, but let me tell another story that teaches a reason doing nothing does not work.

The charger on my tablet does not work very well. When I get it in exactly the right place I figure that if I do nothing, it will charge. But, although, I do nothing, it stops charging! So, obviously, more is happening than what I notice or even cause. The only part that confuses me is that it does not just start charging, but I must actually do something again, so I figure it is a way of teaching me something.

Since childhood I was taught that this life is the "time" we have to mess around with things until we get them right, and that is why I got upset that I was still alive after I should have died. Hadn't I already performed my labors? Well, for one, I would not be here to think that thought or write it for you to read either.

Should I even continue?

Often, I notice that my information exceeds attention spans, and The best way to make a point is to keep it short and just walk away. I really thought Twitter was going to solve that, but my mind does not stop and I do not really want it to. The more I share the more I think. It is a lot like the oil used to make bread for Elijah. Or how my parents explained the huge mounds of Pete Moss north of town in Sandusky. When you move some out of the way, more pops up to take its place.

One such new thoughts is that he who has fewer thoughts and smaller attention span himself will be the popular champion. Ha ha ha.

An original thought that had not made it from my brain to my fingers yet was that doing nothing could never create anything, and above all is my drive to create.

It needs to be at least mentioned what effect such thought has on this one in particular: Evolution is well enough a means, but it does not explain the creation of anything. A bang, no matter how big could never happen by doing nothing.

While I [should be] sleeping...

Just occurred to me that it is miraculous that an entire book or books spanning literally lifetimes and various cultures could be singular in ideals. I struggle keeping my own story straight or at least doctrinally congruent through out.