Late at night I tend to figuring out my thoughts only difference between me and most is that I don't dream it I do it while awake. It often feels unfortunate. Dreams seem a much more fun and even sensible way to let our ideas run wild.
It is an already established thing that our brains work differently, right? Well, I do not have a neat little lable for my method of thought (thus feeling). I merely KNOW that my thoughts are not what one considers "common" sense. One of the biggest indications is in a classroom setting, a teacher points out a topic found in a passage and then requests comments and I can sense the truth in what is said, but generally my thoughts were entirely different unless trained to conform with the masses. I think that is a reason I do not like large groups of people unless I am in someway the leader.
Also, my mother does not process any sensation of smell.No big deal, right? Wrong. Things do not smell...our brain assigns that attribute, so if it is not included in a memory, it takes up considerably less ammount of whatever our brains use to save memories. Over a few years such a thing would leave large swaths of unallocated space which would add up to more useable brain power. Or the fact such a difference would be undetectable by others makes me wonder how much of what I sense is not actually shared by others. Recently, I learned about proprioception and it has always been a part of how I sense the world. Maybe, like gravity there are more forces of the universe that are sensed in varying degrees by others just not acknowledged like Isaac Newton did for gravity. Being aware of it didn't effect that it just WAS. And recently, quantum physicists acknowledge that in some cases the "truths" that we study and use to interpret and communicate the world around us may not be as "universal" as we thought.
This one is "out there" but it is like a claim found in the phantom of the opera. As I consider my growth and development opposed to my children. They lack a sort of inner compass that I had, and I often think, "hmm. How can I explain such a complex principle in a way that they will understand?" All the while, I thpught I was self-taught becausein many things my way of thinking of it differs from my parents. Um, the thought is that perhaps why I love ideas so much is that I had a sort of personal tutor (I use that terminology because I lack the words to express how ideas come). I am not believing that any person is teaching me in a way that I understand but my brain works very well and that is because of how new ideas were introduced. Below is a clip of how I can best describe my experience:
https://youtu.be/7lG2zPKo9e4
