I loved this episode so far...

It was directed by Amanda Tapping, she must be a mental genius, whatever she touches is brilliant!

The show is continuum season 3 episode 5 or 6, and a character is discussing how our need to be merciful requires that someone be killed. I love that sort of depth of thought, but things thought impossible become possible with enough brain power. Sorta like a computer guru said that there is no reason to need more than 200 MBs to store information.

The thing that really stole my fascination was the comment an advisor of time traveling made about how we like to rely on science and all but ultimately it is always how we feel that determines if a thing is right or wrong.

I really suspected it. This quote suggests I'm not just assuming

The beauty of a woman is seen in her eyes, because that is the doorway to her heart, the place where love resides. True beauty in a woman is reflected in her soul. It's the caring that she lovingly gives, the passion that she shows and the beauty of a woman only grows with passing years.”

― Audrey Hepburn

Realization in bloom

The biographical nature of art is my first thought today. Others, because they want to believe in the words or give them a power they chose to believe that they mean something equally provoking to the artist who gave them life. The lead singer for Nickelback once commented on that belief and said that it is only partially biographical for him and definately not in the production, but in repeated performance the song seem to mold his life. I have noticed this truth throughout my life in is the I/O principle. What goes in eventually comes out. I think that is why we are asked to seek out good things if we want a good life.

The art and literature we consume becomes the tint for the glasses through which we see all things.

I suggest this find evidence in how married people or adopted children all take on similarities
And why they say, "You are what you eat."

I just cannot simplify it much, what I learned from a hour long fireside that told the influence media has on us, conciously and subconciously. Everyone can understand it well when we talk about the choice people make to play shooter video games and then express similar violence.

I can do with out many things but I cannot do without Love. This is my second thought.  I considered. My life and what it needed vs. What it wanted to grow. I concluded in perfect agreement of my heart and mind that I could actually do without so many things I have, but I could not thrive without Love.

I have decided after last night, that I need to start a dream journal, a big reason is to try to clarify to myself the things I was thinking through in my sleep, because, frankly interpretting the meaning of waking up with a song, though it influences my thoughts all day and causes me to discover some fascinating things, it is simply not enough to truly understand and appreciate myself.

My dreams are so life like I have a hard time sometimes telling them from reality. But, unlike reality, many significant details are missing. Clearly, I am no dream architech, like on Inception.

Last night, for instance, I was traveling with children and marooned, and sort of picked up by someone. I felt so grateful, but this person wanted to help, but wanted,me to know that they could not do the things they assumed I needed. My burden waa that they know that they were already help enough and did actually give all I needed and I did not actually even want financial assistance and I wanted them to know that, we stopped at a McDonald's and felt responsible for me and my kids, but I woke up. I have no idea where we were or where we were going or who was with me or why.

My last thought was the comment that my ancestors are dependant on me to do their work, and I marvel at this because it has already been done, or maybe something is wrong and I need to find it. Or else it is a chinck in my armor of faith...

So many temples?

I was listening to a general conference session of the church of Jesus Christ of latter-day saints where the building of several smaller temples was announced, and I remember that and at the time I was so happy and excited about all of the possibilities and the accessiblity that I never considered any possible downside, but it explains a lot.
The early saints were leary of building a temple because the persection seemed a result of the first. They said that the second a temple was announced or the cornerstone was laid all hell breaks loose. Just imagine how furious the adversary would be that those pesky Mormons announce several temples, that will dot the globe! Well, just look around. You're welcome.

Interestly, I just watched an episode of warehouse 13 where an artifact made you invincible but killed anyone else present in place, sort of like the guy on Pushing Daisies, if he saved one person then another died, and anyway in this show a guy asks, "Do you think you can play God?" Meaning, sure if you use this artifact to save one life, everyone else will die. Are you sure you want to be responsible for all of that? Isn't that what parents do? They take responsibility for things, and that is why they get to make the choices. And, God is more than just a creator. He is our literal Father in Heaven.

A while ago...

For some reason, this thought has gotten the red flag tonight, so I will oblige and share it.

A woman bore her testimony as a comfort offered to those who start to doubt or waver in their faith. She had prayed whole heartedly for her sister, but it was not until 40 years later that she saw any result of that prayer. After class, I told her that I had been touched by such a personal.story and how it reminds me to remember that God has his own timing, and he is not in the immediate obsession of the world we live in.

Then, as I was leaving she called to me and told me another story where she never doubted, but then the person she prayed for died and she felt like maybe it had been in vain, still she did the temple work for them and felt more strongly and surely than she ever had that this person was grateful. So she told ne not to loose faith even after years or impossibility because God certainly keeps his promises.

What is religion?

The cut and dry answer used to be good enough: a set of beliefs that dictate actions. But, this was no longer good enough to satisfy my ponderful living, as I would poke holes at all the ideas I had accepted as a child. Cue that scripture from "The Mission" when I was a child I thought as a child... But, I put away childish things.

Someone gave the most awesome information if you are ready or looking for it:

When a woman gives birth the child is connected to it's mother by a cord that must be severed. It is tied off in two places then a the cut is made between the two. The fastened sections are called ligatures.

This binding off of the cord shares the same root as the main part of the word religion.

So a religion sort of conveniently becomes the means to define the way we are "tied off" to our diety or sense of being.

For me and others of my faith, our sense of being and diety are closely related, too. Being as our God is our spiritual father. So the way we are tied to him is the religion we profess. Mentioning thus always sort of puts me on a pedestal. I start to feel high and mighty as a daughter of God, and as one I ought never apologize for myself, but be on purpose. It makes me feel less like I need to or even ought to,accept things I know are not correct because I shrink from confrontation and seek to not ever stand out or offend positively or negatively, especially regarding same gender couples. It is just not acceptable and I see it as a fault of mine to try to ride the fence and say hate the sin, but love the sinner. Be accepting of others who believe differently, etc. I just honestly do not think God would be so lenient regarding any issue really, nor could he be.