Legends of Tomorrow

I have been watching this DC comic TV show and almost always a thought wells up regarding what a significantly important era we live in particularly for women. Without delving into specifics, this time is a time like no other for women and instead of being thankful and using the freedoms we have to bless others(which seems a good reason for wanting this power in the first place) women want more and they become as power hungry as the male dominated society they first sought to be equal to.

As each era is visited the distinctions given to this one become very clear especially in the roles that may be filled by  a woman. Setting this show aside, it was also clear by the novel "Jane Eyre" which could not even be seen as being written and published except through an assumed pen name which was male because of the strict social norms of the patriarchal society. Let alone the fact that Jane was herself an orphaned woman who still was self sufficient. Could it be possible that a woman actually had worth beyond being a male sex toy? And yet, women still obsess about appealing to men or usurping their dominance.

I applaud the equality and wish I held a great remote control to hit the pause button. So we could simply come to appreciate how much we have gained before we loose any femininity in seeking more power and domination.

What hurt's the most...

The oddest things have transpired I still need some cushion in the form of time to weigh and consider it all. My first most sure revelations which I am no longer afraid of disclosing:of all things, my family matters most. No question about that ever. And I am not sure of how much time I have wasted and how much I have left, but I simply cannot leave any stone unturned when it comes to being sealed.

I was going to leave for home as soon as school was out. But then, today a thing happened that made me rerealize where I was actually needed, but why I need time is because I know enough to know that at times me have to seem to do the opposite of what seems to be an obvious choice to reach our long term goals.

So, like I said, I have a whole lot to weigh out. But like most of my mental training suggests to me in games like Go or chess, though my end game is clear my strategy is weak. On lumosity i play a pirate navigation game where I know that I could accomplish my goal but mental fatigue after a few moves/consequences are weighed I give up knowing the right move will be revealed but I will loose...so what, huh?

The most amazing thing happened at the grocery store. As I was preparing to shop I asked myself a purely rhetorical question. And my instinct answer to myself made me giggle. I had an actual chemical/brain reward sensation. But, then I sensored my response to be more sensible and as I entered the store the song was playing " what hurt the most was being so close and having so much to say..." and I laughed at myself again cause I actually did have so much to say (cue Somewhere in Time monologue https://youtu.be/c87niQNda-o ) but, admitedly I would neither say or do anything. This explained the dichotomy of my person. I need to figure out who the heck I am.and what I want without always having time to consider while considering my life results that I am forced to regret came from obeying instant desires.

https://youtu.be/7qH4qyi1-Ys

Truman Madsen

Ok, I finally found it. THE THING that solidifies my testimony that. Everything I wanted to believe is worth believing once and for all.

I was sort of casually listening to an audio cassette in my car and on it Truman Madsen was talking about the humor of Joseph Smith. Honestly, that was one of the most appealing things about the gospel Of Jesus Christ as taught in Mormonism. Just watching conference one sees and feels a great appreciation for any who can see humor in reality. I always watch thinking....now, That is my sort of thinking!

I used to think that I lived in what was quite possibly the most humorous ward and stake ever! And it meant something to me. I loved attending institute because I was sure I would appreciate the way I felt. But, that is not my life-changing testimony. Just a side track of many! -

So, on to what happened. A man came to Joseph Smith and told him that he had been visited by an angel... The man in his disclosure mentioned the wardrobe of the messenger to which Joseph told him it was all a hoax. The man was furious and called on God to rain fire down on Joseph and his family. It did not happen and Joseph Smith said the perfect thing...I am sure we are all thinking it. He told the man that his God probably didn't hear him... Maybe he worshiped Baal, etc. etc.

(that is one of my favorite old testament stories)

My testimony is that Joseph Smith was absolutely a prophet and thereby spoke for God and served Him (accordingly knew and loved Jesus Christ).

I thought wait a minute let me be skeptical. Suppose Joseph was a fraud and charleton. This man could expose him. But, Joseph firmly declared that this man was false which he could only do if he was certain for himself that he had spoken to God. This also removed any doubt that the story of Elijah and the prophets of Baal was an actual thing that happened (cause if it was it is undeniable evidence that the tribes of Israel are a chosen people!)

I need to take care of Martha (sister of Lazareth) things like dinner and kids... Brb

Then I considered, perhaps Joseph knew for a surety there was no God and that was how he knew it was a hoax

Oh forget it! That was a pretty arogant assumption anyhow. We are supposed to believe without knowing. Walk by faith sort of thing...yeah, but why? I'm not done yet.

Just wanted to add this new thought. I realize others may think this is more likely evidence, undeniable, that Joseph Smith knew there was no God, but taking that assumption it snaps back to being a testimony for me because there would be no retaliation or need to fulfill any prophecies and he would be entirely free to do as he please allowing for any sort of behavior by means of a dogma. But, he didn't, infact he suffered all his life and was martyred. Let alone the proverb that unequivocally states that if you train a child in a certain way, he will return to it and from his childhood we learn of a great amount of religious/pious teaching was done by his mother and father who stand behind him 100% as well.

I was willing to consider the thing I learned from watching "The Prestige". I learned from the extremely unexpected Long-con of the Chinese man who faked others by creating an illusion of his everyday deformity merely so he could perform a trick where he hid a fishbowl in his gown. That it is possible for a hoax to be pulled off through a number of perfectly calculated moves as in a game of stratagem. But, he simply could not have even known what to prepare for throughout a whole life.

The conclusion I am both prone and forced (through consideration) to accept is that Joseph Smith was a prophet of God. And so this church he established must be the Church of Jesus Christ of Lattet-day Saints.