Saturday, August 2, 2008
Brooksie
I was thinking about her and how much we are alike. Brandall says that he tells her that he loves her but she tells me that he doesn't love her, hmm. interesting. It becomes my job to convince her that he does love her. I wonder who will convince me cause I do not believe it one whit.
Victoria
Well, I don't rightly know who Victoria is, but I don't like her.
this has been a riddle posed or those looking for them.
Similarities: Look for them.
this has been a riddle posed or those looking for them.
Similarities: Look for them.
Friday, August 1, 2008
Major Breakthrough
It didn't comehow or when I expected, but now I must share.
Last night I called Brandall, mostlyly crying, because God was protecting me in allowing me not to do the things that Were harmful that I wanted. Ofcourse I didn't see it then. but If I just keep mylawyer and work with Brandall I will get the divorce. I thought that it was nor whar I wanted, Though I did, I was just so confused. See? I reallylove Brandall and only want a divorce because I love him and want to give him what he wants, but the minute I did, everything started working out, and most notably, I lost 13 lbs, while eating lie a pig. I can fit into my smaller clothes and fix computers, soon I think I will be able to sing!
The whole while I honestly thought that Brandall and I should be together and I prayer for it. but now as much as it hurts me, I must be the mature one and be active in granting a divorce. Brandall has had years and trsoutces at his disposal, buy couldn't divorce me until I was ready. to me it shows that God's power is grater than even agency. I noticed that people fall inlove withme all of the time. Brandall isevery thing I love but NEWSFLASH! he doesn't love me. I would wait around until he did, but it isn't going to happen and I have greater things to accomplish.
Nicholas wants me to love him, but I don't yet. I know there is somrthing about him though that keeps me around, It was farwful that we meet, but I do not hve a testimony that I will spend forever with him. Though I love so much about him, and it is important, and I know that eternaly the way people appear is almost insignificant, yet, there is no "Magic" between us, that I know of, and that is why m immortal, there is no doubt there, so I want a love that will always be with mr, though I am learning that it doesn't make me unique. I used to think that what I need a divorce cause there can not be until then, it would be wrong, but I will keep mysel open until then, to fall in love like in "Hancock" Eternally so.
I thought that what Brandall and I had was so unique and rare, but now, everyone else is still together. I guess I was wrong. Everyone wants love and just because someone promises to love you forever doesn't mean that they well. I do not doubt that I will live forever, so I must ind someone who will love me that long, so they must love the constant and unchanging me or want the same me thatI hope for. I think that is why i like Nick.
Last night I called Brandall, mostlyly crying, because God was protecting me in allowing me not to do the things that Were harmful that I wanted. Ofcourse I didn't see it then. but If I just keep mylawyer and work with Brandall I will get the divorce. I thought that it was nor whar I wanted, Though I did, I was just so confused. See? I reallylove Brandall and only want a divorce because I love him and want to give him what he wants, but the minute I did, everything started working out, and most notably, I lost 13 lbs, while eating lie a pig. I can fit into my smaller clothes and fix computers, soon I think I will be able to sing!
The whole while I honestly thought that Brandall and I should be together and I prayer for it. but now as much as it hurts me, I must be the mature one and be active in granting a divorce. Brandall has had years and trsoutces at his disposal, buy couldn't divorce me until I was ready. to me it shows that God's power is grater than even agency. I noticed that people fall inlove withme all of the time. Brandall isevery thing I love but NEWSFLASH! he doesn't love me. I would wait around until he did, but it isn't going to happen and I have greater things to accomplish.
Nicholas wants me to love him, but I don't yet. I know there is somrthing about him though that keeps me around, It was farwful that we meet, but I do not hve a testimony that I will spend forever with him. Though I love so much about him, and it is important, and I know that eternaly the way people appear is almost insignificant, yet, there is no "Magic" between us, that I know of, and that is why m immortal, there is no doubt there, so I want a love that will always be with mr, though I am learning that it doesn't make me unique. I used to think that what I need a divorce cause there can not be until then, it would be wrong, but I will keep mysel open until then, to fall in love like in "Hancock" Eternally so.
I thought that what Brandall and I had was so unique and rare, but now, everyone else is still together. I guess I was wrong. Everyone wants love and just because someone promises to love you forever doesn't mean that they well. I do not doubt that I will live forever, so I must ind someone who will love me that long, so they must love the constant and unchanging me or want the same me thatI hope for. I think that is why i like Nick.
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