Major Breakthrough

It didn't comehow or when I expected, but now I must share.

Last night I called Brandall, mostlyly crying, because God was protecting me in allowing me not to do the things that Were harmful that I wanted. Ofcourse I didn't see it then. but If I just keep mylawyer and work with Brandall I will get the divorce. I thought that it was nor whar I wanted, Though I did, I was just so confused. See? I reallylove Brandall and only want a divorce because I love him and want to give him what he wants, but the minute I did, everything started working out, and most notably, I lost 13 lbs, while eating lie a pig. I can fit into my smaller clothes and fix computers, soon I think I will be able to sing!

The whole while I honestly thought that Brandall and I should be together and I prayer for it. but now as much as it hurts me, I must be the mature one and be active in granting a divorce. Brandall has had years and trsoutces at his disposal, buy couldn't divorce me until I was ready. to me it shows that God's power is grater than even agency. I noticed that people fall inlove withme all of the time. Brandall isevery thing I love but NEWSFLASH! he doesn't love me. I would wait around until he did, but it isn't going to happen and I have greater things to accomplish.

Nicholas wants me to love him, but I don't yet. I know there is somrthing about him though that keeps me around, It was farwful that we meet, but I do not hve a testimony that I will spend forever with him. Though I love so much about him, and it is important, and I know that eternaly the way people appear is almost insignificant, yet, there is no "Magic" between us, that I know of, and that is why m immortal, there is no doubt there, so I want a love that will always be with mr, though I am learning that it doesn't make me unique. I used to think that what I need a divorce cause there can not be until then, it would be wrong, but I will keep mysel open until then, to fall in love like in "Hancock" Eternally so.

I thought that what Brandall and I had was so unique and rare, but now, everyone else is still together. I guess I was wrong. Everyone wants love and just because someone promises to love you forever doesn't mean that they well. I do not doubt that I will live forever, so I must ind someone who will love me that long, so they must love the constant and unchanging me or want the same me thatI hope for. I think that is why i like Nick.