Middle age?

 Let's go with the metaphor of a hill. If we plot age on the horizontal axis, 40 was the middle and past 40 was the peak and vertically one would be over the hill past it. We are charting vitality on the vertical axis.

The trouble with that thinking, overflows to many MANY areas. A life does not cease in vitality at 80 any longer. So, middle age is both later and longer.

It is likely insensitive of me to say that our entire system is still working on the 40 year peak model largely due to good Healthcare and many people no longer vital enough to contribute but still hanging on and taxing the system. Cue a virus that only targets fatally those who would have already ceased to exist anyway. (I feel bad saying that because I am not affected, but reasonably, if it were me I would prefer to pass on that cling to an existence no longer intended for me)

I just do not get it...people act like it's the plague when even my parents and most everyone I love has had and survived COVID. Sure it is bad, so is starving, or not having a shelter to live in, but the same people who do all the outward motions of preventing this virus, do nothing when it comes to say seat-belt or texting while driving is involved, and aren't more lives at stake there?

OK got that out of my system. Probably time to get off the computer and experience life a bit today, instead of just thinking 🤔. 

Scifi genre

 Alright, so there are almost too many things to write about when explaining why Science  Fiction is my favorite genre. One main reason is it breaks the boundaries or reality to explore conceptions and inventions that would be, and eventually many things become, but I am still waiting on teleportation. Although, scientists a free in this genre to create a new universe, one thing bothers me, how we still do not imagine, with the exception of "Wall-e", a protagonist who is anything but beautiful. I found in my summer vacation a refreshing saga or two where characters were more human. So, I thought, well, being free to create a fiction we are not limited to what humans naturally are...then I discovered how the main characters are always perfect specimens. This lends itself to my notion that if you are ideal, you do not fail in any way. We toy with imperfect robots, but still only tell stories of beautiful people and any flaw is not a parent. Is this the future of humanity or only another limitation? Ask yourself this question again, until you have an answer.

Don't dreams make great stories? But do we dream of anything but beautiful people? I really wonder. I think people might have better self-images if another image actually could accomplish anything, even in the future.

Ignorantly brilliant

 As I was listening to people I considered experts, and had different ideas than their conclusions, I remembered how brilliant my ideas always seemed at first. As I live longer I learn to say less. I use to feel compelled to speak my mind when I thought differently, but now am starting to realize, it has all been thought before. I used to think all my great ideas were original, and they are no less amazing, but NOT original.

I recall from the movie "A Beautiful Mind" that the character of John Nash was looking for original idea. That was noteworthy to me, but I didn't think more on it. Also, my first Algebra teacher used to say, "I sincerely wish that you become as ignorant as me one day." So, it was not a simple thing for me to discover that he meant that he hoped we would become wise. The more you know the more you know that you don't know. Likewise a very good friend shared a tip with me regarding motherhood, "Women who know do less." Futher, a notable scientist said that the trick is knowing enough to believe something, but never enough to actually conform that supposition and still you make a choice.

I still greatly admire my own thoughts as if they came from some external source that knows, where I don't. But, I am slowly realizing that though they are  groundbreaking and amazing to me they are not new. Still, reflecting upon ideas and forming new ones is what I do and who I am. It is simply more important to garner information or listen and learn than sharing. That has been a hard lesson, probably like realizing the sun and moon do not revolve around the Earth.

What does seeing do..

 ...and don't say believing, cause seeing is not believing. No matter how spectacular something is it cannot be captured alone through one sense. Infact, I dare to say that it is sort of a direct relationship when a thing is more spectacular it is that much harder to represent until it reaches the point of impossibility to communicate. But Richard Wagner wanted to do it, he wanted to redemonstrate feelings through using all senses. Such a lofty ambition is referred to as Gesamkuntwerk. My dad often complained that recordings never do justice to the feeling a piece of music "felt" in person.

we'll see...

 I have sort of been a sucker when it cmes to believing what I am told because every source agrees. this sort of indicates that it is either true or a really good lie. I admit that I do have an unique skin color, but it seems like every where I look I see the same information, genetically I match Clovis and Kennewick DNA as well as Greenlandish Eskimo. Those places are quite far apart and the locations seem impossible, but that only implies that I am unable to figure out how, not that it is not possible that anyone can figure it out.

I will be looking more closely at this all beause it actually does make sense in situations where I thought that I must be alien, simply because I assumed that I was european, and had evolved from people in Africa. I explained this by learning that I was more largely neaderthal, but ot at all Asian, so I could not be Native American because they came across a landbridge, hence I would need to share some common genetic traces or commonality with Asian, but did not. I do however, have now shared genetics with early Americans. I honestly didn't even know that there were any.