Time

It is always about time regardless what I have to say it ends up being about time. I fully intended a long post about my short hair, which would not have been as much about hair and fashion as about time and identity

It is about how scarcity makes a thing valuable. My parents used to say such a thing about paying tithing and the blessing of it comes from the hardship of it. Because one must manage carefully to be able to pay it one notices that it truly doesn't work out but somehow it always does if tithing is paid regardless.

So, I am finding with time the more closely I manage it, the more I seem to have, and lately, I have decided that I need compose which requires a whole lot of time and because I have been so busy I will not waste the time I have.

Spinning my wheels

If I were a metaphor, I would be a truck and the mud it is stuck in. I fail to accomplish anything is becauseI am too preoccupied deciding what that would even be. A few breaths after I decide to go after a goal, I decide the next moment that I was wrong. If I would just decide either way I would accomplish great peace of mind as well as whatever I set my self after. Two important ideas surface.

1). A song, but more than it, the video, cause I do not want a hearer to attribute a more pertinent meaning. I learn/think through video anyhoo this is on my mind:
https://youtu.be/8yvGCAvOAfM

That video leads me to think that maybe Peace of mind will only come through defeating the only rival I truly have, myself.

2). A blessing I recieved as a young teen said many things that have verbatim repeated over and over in my head. On an interview years ago, someone said that things that start out as just interesting, after we repeat them over and over they become biographical. In my blessing the phrase is "among all of these talents that you brought with you, the greatest is being able to accomplish the desires of your heart. You have within you the ability to be successful in your emdeavors. It is of utmost importance that you keep eternal perspective as choices are made..." it truly sounds like if I can decide on a thing I will be successful. I always thought it meant somehow that I would be as famous as Michael Jackson, as strange as that sounds. Recently, I watched a videoed interview where someone talked about how if we have dreams we owe it to ourselves to go out and accomplish them, another song?:

https://youtu.be/Ntlt2tKi4do