Cherish

Don't actually know what to conclude yet, just realize that was a significant power play. Reality is hard to comprehend right now.

I have not decided what is real and what is hoped for yet, I just know that where ever I look, there you are.

https://youtu.be/1aFied2YYVg

Heavenly FATHER

I understand that although many religions worship a diety not all call it the same thing. In theology belonging to the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints we believe and pray to a FATHER who is in heaven, thus a Heavenly Father.

As I explored this choice of the word FATHER ofcourse it occurred to me that would make us all children. All being of one family is an important concept, one embraced throughout time and belief systems.  One that really held my interest for the longest time was Kabbalism. Where (I cannot phantom to break down what they believe in a paragraph let alone a sentance) science and spirituality merge, based wholy on the concept that we are one, not merely a family, but an actual unit and each is a part of the whole. This idea sat well with my notions of being children of God, and wondering why we would call him our father. I even speculated, independently if he was a father in the same sense as we are mothers and fathers... okay. Time to go on a tangent, hopefully I'll come back to finish this thought, but. Unlike many religions, we believe that God was once like we are, at least that is what I was taught, but I have not spoken with others about this or anything, but it us in scripture that God was once like us and we aspire to become like him...fast forward to the person Abraham (which sorta means FATHER, right) and we make sense of all of his hardship because it is common knowledge that trials are likened to refining. The improvement we hope to gain is in a direction of our FATHER and Jesus Christ claimed that his father was the only good (what we define as moral correct).

Just last week, I studied that any thought that helps us towards good is of God. It was a given system to determine if thoughts and ideas were even true.

You'll have to think on your own from here, my kids need me....sorta ironic, perhaps intentional.....bye 

have patience

This morning, I had a song stuck in my head, so, I looked it up in YouTube and after I watched it, I told my kids, "I know why this song is stuck in my head!" Cause we were studying the story of Abraham and Sarah who were promised numberless children, but were getting too old, and they got it, and so what I was thinking about began.

Sarah was so very impatient with the Lord, even though she and Abraham were promised numberless children, she was going to take matters into her own hands and make it happen, so she gave her slave to her husband to have children, as if God needed her to figure out a way, granted sometimes it seems like He does, maybe not need, but wants us to figure things out as part of our growth. I am thinking about the story from last week about the tiwer of Bable, and when the Jaredites were commanded to cross the sea in those crazy submarine-like boats, they needed light, but God instead of just solving that problem, asked "what do you want me to do?" Jared and his brother presented a solution and crossed the waters as asked with help.

OK, back to Sarah. God did not say, "Oh, you're right Sarah, that is a terrible problem. What should be done?" She just understood the trouble in her mortal way and took it upon herself to solve it and make God's promise possible. But, she ended up very jealous and sent the slave and child away and ended up having her own child...so I ding, "have patience, have patience..."and think of how I always try to solve issues that do not seem to be working out the way intended. Perhaps, I do not understand what is actually going on. Like an advertisement where a car pulls out from behind slow traffic, and it is commented that from the perspective of the camera it was just bad driving, but from the driver's perspective it was just not patient. The ad was for a device that increases the driver's perception so they will not make bad choices like that. Similarly, I need a device that grants me eternal perspective so I can accept things and just be patient knowing that God keeps his promises, and is working on a different time frame.

https://youtu.be/iL1BRPEjMZA

disgruntled

I've heard the last straw. I hear so much protest about how the media handles thing, or backlash at Hollywood for it's rose colored remakes of history, but enough is enough. There are flatly, too many cooks in the kitchen, all preparing the same recipe, it is unlikely any of them would meet the expectations of the one who wrote it in the first place. 

My real gripe is with people who from trusted positions tell lies. Now, I feel resentment towards most and skepticism towards everyone.

I kept having nightmares last night, and the most frightening adversary was a tiny, cute, fuzzy bee, that I only allowed myself to be stung in the first place because I trusted that it wouldn't sting me, but it did and I panicked and woke myself up in pain worried about anafalactic shock, realizing it was just a dream, I began wondering what wisdom my mind had conjured up, and quickly related it to a popular, unrational fear of this stupid, contagious flu further, how the fear of it causes more damage and likely pain as well... my daughter has been so sensitized that she honestly fears death via covid, when in reality, she is far more likely to be hit by a car walking home. Oh, I'm just disturbed.

 Now even little things are ticking me off when usually not much does. Seriously, it is like my son telling me that as a responsible adult, I ought to go tell my neighbor to quit smoking, cause it is killing her. So, I told him I knew for a fact that anyone who plays roblox will die. And that's the sort of crap that is ticking me off. A whole lot if truth leading to a true conclusion, but applied out of context.

 Just yesterday I saw an episode of Stargate Atlantis again, about a group of people who believed they needed to commit suicide at 25 years of age to protect their loved ones....and they were right that over population would result if people lived longer, which would force them to colonize new areas that were not protected. So, it was true, but there was another solution. I apply that logic to many global situations. Like how many people do unnecessary things like kill themselves because it makes logical sense to do so...alright, I'm just being silly now.