one or the other

That is a good title for a song yet written,
Eternally I sttrugle between two, do I love one or the other, who am I? one or the other. I guess I will continue to try to find delight in having a choice, but I really would just rather not have a choice but in so doing I would have to surrender to the one or the other. I think that was supposed to be my lot in this life, i bet love was the reason behind the selfish desire to take our choices away. I will win the war if I but recognize the gift and opportunity, against all odds placed before me, but isn't that a choice to avoid being trapped. I wager that somewhere in my being I can recall old feelings and stir up a sort of rememberance to know the truth of my fictions. I am not a grand delusion, but a captivating truth, made to struggle only a moment to win the war, so I must be willing to act out of ignorance and accept trials in hopes of remaining true to what I am.