Where are they?

I used to love to extreme the musical "The Garden" I would accompany myself as I sang I Can't Grow and I Am Nothing over and over. It was like they were my theme songs. At this time I happened, in my studies, upon a curious thought. "Where are all the great LDS entertainers"? It stood to reason that such fantastic seeds of thought, etc would produce the finest fruit. My answer is that they are doing important things, like raising the future generation, and they, rightly, do not have time for such persuits, or stumbling blocks.

But, like the Berlin Wall, almost instantly things changed and man finds so much more time and what better way to influence, Huh?

Ok, now time to sythesize the two ideas. I watched what persuing a path that leaves one out there does to a man (or woman). I used to wonder why can't I grow? I thought, they are no better in any way then me when I watched sucessful entertainers. Because of things in my pb I always assumed it meant that I would end up in the limelight where I could be the best example. Ahhh! Hah! Not yet, little one, not yet! It is like drinking from the Holy grail and choosing incorrectly means death. I am upset that I do not to get to drink first, but I am getting the opportunity to learn from others mistakes so not as to repeat failures...

Quickly, I must interject a funny game we play in preschool where a mouse is hodden behind one of about 9 different colored houses. The game is "Mouse, What color is your house?" And it amazes me how very very often after maybe 13 attempts the correct color/house has not been chosen to reveal the mouse.

A friend of mine once described a thing called family or generational repentance. Don't bother looking it up, it is not really a thing. He suggested that a truth temains eternal but each generation seeks to apply it a way that is dependent on seeing how it has worked thus far.

I realize that I have not been ready to succeed and would have shared a similar fate to those who tried to follow a life that I felt like I deserved.