Ester

Ok, so, I was watching the cartoon story of Ester last week, and liked it so much that I clicked on it on YouTube to be reinspired, and I was but, my thoughts took an entirely different direction.

I actually stumbled on this new thought by trying to imagine myself in such a position, as we often do by replacing words of scriptures with our own name. Ok, so I started getting all upset instead of inspired.

The same moral of the story worked for perhaps she was "born for such a time." But, I thought, do we not teach our young children that marriage should only be with those of our faith, in the right time and right place? Eeek! Ester had to Marry the king  (and not pray publically, but hide who she really was) for her people. If it were me, which it wasn't, I would feel terrible, like I was missing the whole point and purpose of being. So, what if I saved lives if I ruined my own, "The worth of souls is great in the sight of God." Souls are not merely spirits or merely bodies.

As I was finding this strange yet undeniable sort of paradox, I thought of a thing I had read years ago written by Tal Bachman, not to credit him, but just to explain where I read it. I was not looking for information from "dissenters" or anything. I merely liked the way his mind worked and was almost addicted to his words. Anyhow, he said that it did not matter where we looked, pretty much any story or principle we looked at, loopholes would jump out at us, and they always do (I recall being impressed by his analogy to simple arithmetic and it didn't add up).

I would follow the counsel of Dieter Uchtdorf to "doubt my doubts." And soon enough my struggle to make peace is won with a new stronger faith for having "hefted that weight" like I teach my kids,  to build muscle we are actually tearing and ripping tissue and as it repairs it is stronger and that is why they are sore sometimes.

https://youtu.be/Oo1A3sOvHyo