I feel Bad

I should be out in that driveway stopping you
Tears should be rolling down my cheek
And I don't know why I'm not falling apart
Like I usually do
And how the thought of losing you's not killing me
I feel bad
That I can stand here strong
Cold as stone, Seems so wrong
I can't explain it
Maybe it's just
I've cried so much
I'm tired and I'm numb Baby I hate it
I feel bad that I don't feel bad

I can let myself be angry over wasted time
And sad about just throwing love away
Yeah I almost wish my heart was breaking
But I cant lie
All I want to do is turn the page
I feel Bad

That I can stand here strong
Cold as stone, Seems so wrong
I can't explain it
Maybe it's just
I've cried so much
I'm tired and I'm numb Baby I hate it
I feel bad

That I don't feel bitter, alone
I just feel its time, its time to move on
I just gotta move on and on and on

Yeah
Baby it's just I've cried so much
I'm tired and I'm numb baby I hate it
I feel bad that I don't feel bad
No, I don't feel bad


Actually, I don't feel bad, I just like this song.
I hope to feel like this, but I'm not strong enough.
I still love Brandall. I think its cause I promised
to, not cause he's done anything to deserve it,
hence this song is nice.

I probably should just be strong and move on. But it
gets so tricky. I have those kids, but I know they wold be happier just to have things over, too. I wish Brandall would've not proceeded without my approval, I get upset because you can't marry somene without their consent, so you shouldn't be able to divorce without it, maybe if he explain why to me I would agree or understand, but this is just stupid!