Saterday revelation

Ok, so I'm going through a greiving process, what's next? I am tired of crying and lamenting What could've been.

I got to thinking about one of the many people getting a divorced when I was married who asked me for advice, one lady, who I decied to befriend, though I know not why, told me that shewas getting a divorce because they were nnot sexually compatible. Oh come on I thought! all men are sexually compatible with all women. but I knew that it was very serious or it woudn't cause a divorce. It stuck with me. When Brandall divorced me, I remembered it. I thought that was probably his reason, so I tried to find someone who really loved sex, but that wasn't the trouble. Every guy loves sex, not hard to find. but I am playing for something moreserious, higher odds, so to speak. I love sex, but that is just a given not determining factor in a potential husband. I look for attraction or chemistry, and realie that everting physical can be manipulated. I could look anyway I want, but I could not change who I am. I need to find someone I love, not just desire physically.

I can blame darned movies for planting that idea. It isn't true. Good men and women aren't always going to be gorgeous.

I need to eat and sleep, it is very cold out! but the sun did rise. I hoped it would!
Not much longer and I'll have my kids with me.