I decided that I need to think seriously about my list that I made for such a reason.Then I figured out that I don't need a list to tell me what I like or don't like. I can recognise it. The thing I want isn't necessarily patience, though that is part of it. it is the ability to go aftr what you want not letting any thouht or person stand in your way. I would like to see evidence in that, but mostly I would want that to be placed in me. all of my favorite stories are about men who go after a woman even though reason an various things tell them no. My favorite scene in some Jane Austin book is when a guy decides that he lovesa girl andshe is his purpose. I loved the movie Legacy because David Walker falls in love and still persues his interest even thoug she is engaged toa vey good man. I could add more stories till I grow wearry of typing, but the point is, I have thought that I found someone becuse they fit my list of qualificationsonly to realise that wasn't what I needed.
Though he's not reading this. I wanted Steve to make up his mind, and choose me, that was silly, and I turned him away because he just gave up. But finding someone is easy, I still like him, because he is so wise and perfect. but mostly I'm in love with Peter Patrelli, and vicariously I like steve, He deserves better. Brandall used to get mad at me because I talked too much about Jim, and had posters of Tal Bachman on my wall. That was rediculous, obviously not what I want, but I am willing to wait forever if he tried to please me a little. Crap, that makes me sound like a dictator. I would like for my husband to worship me, that's not crasy. He should tell me what he wants not just divorce me because after five years he figured out that I wasn't perfect. oh well, soon chuck comes on!!!!! I love it.
I honestly changed gears I don't even recall what I was saying. I was jst thinking about what would happen on chuck.
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