Blind spot

"I felt like the crazy lady all day. You know, the only one who doesn't realize that she is bizarre."

That was what a teacher at an institute class (a church related class) said and I often think about it. What if what I see is really and truly very far from what appears to everyone else? Well, I always sort of knew it was. What I did not consider is that everyone else shares a sort of learned collective consciousness. One I have never learned.

So, yesterday, I nearly died in an accident because of a blind spot. I felt so horrible. Did the other car know that I absolutely did not see them at all?
I often am paranoid that every other car driver knows something I do not or that when they see me drive by they get nervous and avoid me at all costs. So, my incident with my blind spot and a car just appearing out of no where magnified my belief...it is similar to how random occurrences or miracles enhance faith in something that was only a belief. Think about that movie "Inception". Faith works the same way. Plant the seed of an idea and if it is nourished it will grow. Well, recently my paranoia has been growing.