About time - Living longer

All this chain reaction of thought started when I thought about how I inherited incredible traits from my parents. And how people never used to live this long, but I have genetic traits that will not wear out before my time on earth ends.

Because we live longer we do not need to live faster! I am ideally paced in my maturity, I suppose I just like me. But, I realized that all along I had been comparing myself to the standards that were far younger than me and then supposing my peers were much older than me. I missed my ideal age which used to be when people started dying, so I never would have had to live through this state of slow decay while still alive. Anyway, I missed my prime in my 30's assuming I was too old to matter or even attempt to make a mark. I guess that is one reason I got so sick to be fair to others. If I had been allowed to.continue normally uninterrupted by illness, I would have been took competent and too charming with an unfair advantage as my body would have seemed super human. I am not so bad considering what I endured. I just missed a good support where it should have been and would have been if I didn't get all over anxious to live.

Now, I am realizing that I do not need to be in any hury I will have plenty of time. I just read the coolest comment about time: Time is wasted if you don't use it. I add that it is useless. I loved Kung Fu Panda, too when It was said, The past already happened, the future is yet to be, but the time we actually have is a gift that's why they call it a present.

But, my thought this morning was that all of this scheduling and deadlines is a product of finite thinking, so instead I will have eternal perspective and slow down and try to enjoy the briefest of moments that I have living this life. In acting class one of the tips taught was given by teaching us how to have a perfect performance. It was likened to playing tennis and thinking of only what our duty was in the particular moment. Things are easier if we simplify by narrowing our perspective to fit the moment, yet knowing it is part of a larger time frame. Knowing that gives us the security we need to just trust that if we do well now consequentually eternal life will be good. Knowing life is not going to end gives us a special appreciation for the moments. Each "now" is like a bead stringedon a never ending necklace of life.