Particles again

I have been thinking again layely about why I have so mamy opinions about things that I could not possibly understand anyway...well not the way experts in such fields explain them.

It always comes back to my notions of creation and forces and building blocks. I love ideas when they match my preconcieved ones, but where the heck do they come from?

I argue with brilliant philosophers and mathmaticians about theories I could not even begin to understand as they do and tonight it occurred to me why that is.

I am in a sense untethered to, as my husband put it as he explained core math solutions to my son. My husband spoke of thinking outside the box, which I chose to refer to as untethered. The great thinkers weave grand, fine, complicated weaves that like a spider's web are sticky and intended to trap. Most great thinkers waste time arguing about the impracticalities that can only be understood through accepting other impracticalities.

As an aside, in college I was very upset that I did not understand well enough to use the jargon to communicate false theories in my evolutionary biology and astronomy classes (ahich were all electives for a music major). So, I went to the library to check out Newton's Principea and ended up not understanding a bit of it. The book was lovely and old, but entirely in Latin and mathmatics. Although, I adored mathmatics it must be a universal language (like one used on SG-1). If I understood it I could draw complex equations on chalkboards and. Solve complex problem by quantifying them (which I felt was what John Nash could do in the movie A Beautiful Mind).

Ok, come back here to my point. I do not speak mathmatics, and I think that gives me an actual advantage. As I was laid off from a technical field position at Boeing my boss explained that I was not being let go because I seemed to lack technical expertise because that was actually why I had been hired. He explained that my job was one where comminication was more important that being an outward brainiac aka nerd. He said that opposed to the many recently graduated tech gurus knew it all and acted accordingly. It was my humility and approachability that solved problems. Cause frankly, more issues ran deeper than a misfunctioning device. And from surveys of past customers I was doing a far better job. I obviously knew my business but often what was needed was someone to explain what was wrong in a way that was understood by the end users not wow them or make them feel too stuipid to use the equipment.

So, I feel like I am able to delve into deeper issues because I am not a know it all. I am not tripped up by squabbles that grand theories and infrastructures have made. My theories are not based on complex math or such, to me they are simple truths.

Hah! My dad once said something profound about his algebra teacher (and I noticed my music theory teachers doing it, too). He said that they like to make it seem like what they understand is so profound and mysterious that you will need to come to them for help when actually it is ashamedly simple. A good teacher is like C.S.Lewis in the movie Shadowlands giving easy answers for life's difficult problems.

So back to the Atom. I do not even know the proper jargon to explain what holds it together, nor am I in any way qualified to explain spacetime or how heavenly bodies move in orbits but I do undeniably know that whatever principle can be measured and understood through studying one will tell about the other.