Inclination

There must be a pre existing inclination because there are stories and testaments for every angle of a story. I had always believed in a lowest denominator where a thing could not be explained in simpler terms.

But, as I think of how I believe The Book of Mormon is what it claims to be I consider other stories. I assume there are many which I have not considered and could not even fabricate and I must consider this to have been presented to others, (this being another opinion or story) which lead them to believe as they deemed correct.

The trouble is that I had always thought that regardless of what it decided it was how it decided to get there that was of interest to me, meaning that I was more interested in the solution than the answer. But, then it occurred to me that if a solution was truly brilliant and correct then it would settle for the truth. Like settling for my husband, I believed he often concluded wrong, but was thinking right, so if given the right thing to think on he would end up in the best place, but it troubles me to see that his conclusions do not meet mine when given the same information.

So, now I need to think most seriously about my descision of what to believe. I want to be firm and believe what I did, already, but if I believe it, it contradicts what I believe about a family.

Ok, this requires prayer.  If ever someone "lacked wisdom" to the point I did  (caused an apparent stalemate), I would consider them in a very small needy group. I am quite independent and I do not like to follow other's example, but even Christ had John the Baptist to prepare his way.

Oh, come on, I really am so insignificant, such a thing would not even matter. No one would care or be effected if I pulled a George Bailey, not that I would, I sorta like living, and figuring out why. I just acknowledge that there are an unlimited number of opinions of what is true. I am only concerned with one, Gods, and any that will lead me to that end. I was just realizing that some of those opinions might be that God does not even exist...and what would such a train of thought lead to?

"...like a freight train that derails from it's track. Never meets it's destination and it's never going back...."