Just a random 2 things shoved into my immediate attention as worth considering.
1)love
2)since I can't remember 2 I'll mention sizes, cause why not.
Love, um, well. It should be a thing that is understood, just one word but so many different meanings that it gas almost become hard to recognize at all.
Ideally, no matter what we consider loce it is found in a developing relationship that starts as a fondness for being around to an all out chemical/hormonal war with your senses before settling into a peace or comfort of belonging.
I did not recognize what I feltvas love, so I called it obsession, although the feeling has not changed the object has. And I decided tonight to call it love. It us a strong feeling, the strongest I have ever known when I want them to be happy, and do what is right despite what consequences it may have on me. I recognized it as joy when I ought to have been heart broken thinking a choice had been made that had absolutely nothing yo do with me. I was not mad at all. I was not hurt. I was nothing but entirely happy that a person was happy cause afterall that was what I wanted all along. I had been lead to believe that if you love someone and they love you, that brings joy, but I felt joy in loving someone although they were oblivious to me, and I liked it.
What was different was tonight I thought, "oh, come on, really, on a base untainted level you want to be loved, but no. I don't. I truly don't. It is love, another kind of love that goes beyond well-wishing or fondness or even a selfish desire for reciprocated attention. If you have felt it and wondered what it was, you were like me and dared not call it love because you are not legally married to them and it woukd be wrong to "love" someone orher than your spouse, right? Well, it is love.
One time, on Seasame Street, Elmo is jealous of a baby and asks the mother if she has to love everyone else a little less to love the baby. The mother's name was Gina. Gina explained that love is almost an unlimited capacity for us all. The more we have to love the more our ability grows. This is inversely true, too. I am discovering. Meaning, that the more capacity we recognize within ourselves the more opportunities we seize.
Remove an e and seize becomes size (corny segue, huh?)
Size.
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