Nuture

WARNING: This is not a common philosophical debate attempting to assert how one attains their nature, rather it is a journaling accounts of my discovery.

It started while I was musing about the monarch in England and how she might have lacked types of nurture, but every single genius did. I almost think it tampers with or ruins divine nature.

I noticed in college that my skills were transformed into a lesser ability and especially in terms of my compositions. Oddly, I noticed that I naturally followed all of the rules I was being taught. I think someone was great and they were analyzed and mimicked and so we all copied so that one could be taught to create in a like manner, but to learn to create like someone else, I had to give up my own skills.

It was very interesting to me that some peers who attended school with my father took the "rules" we all were learning to create great symphonic works and "taught"them to a computer who could spit out "perfect"compositions, but they were not pleasing. Think on that.

But, I was thinking about a particular instance this morning when my friend, Robert, commented on how "cosmicaly aware" I was. And it has been thought fodder on occassion.

This morning I figured the reason I felt so completely unaware of the world around me was the same thing others like Robert mistook for me being cosmically aware. It is because I was not aware of the same things as almost everyone else around me. And a few people assumed the things I noted were in addition to what they noticed. So, they were in awe of it, but actually, I was a complete moron as to things one ought to notice.

My concluding thought was not to be so upset, it is possible this is a reward or in LDS terminology, a blessing to not be part of the world. Such a thing ought not be unlearned so that I can relearn a lesser way to "see" like everyone else or receive any praise of men, but ultimately know less.

It is ironic that now I think lyrics that others applied originally to the English Royal family it says, "You used to be someone just like me." But, I associate it with the scripture of how it is good to be learned (nurtured), but when men are learned they think they are wise and they forget God and true knowledge.

Recently, I heard it brilliantly explained that we know in more ways than with the five given senses. A quote of a book/movie was given that said that one can only KNOW things with their heart... I could say more, but lack the time. Sorry.