Strange realization

I always thought that if you made up your mind before necessary, it was easier to stick to it. And I have always been strong enough to stick with a thing once I decided on it. This ability has been honed and strengthen each month of my life since I can remember by purposely denying myself food or drink though my body needed it. I was able to ignore my body regardless, if my mind was set on a thing.

So, today, when a silly thing happened and I lost a wager with myself. I was very confused and disturbed because although untrue, or was it. I am thinking of making the same deal with myself, because I didn't really believe it., and that is where it gets it's power.

I just cannot stop thinking, well, what if.

It is like that game you play as a kid where you do not step on any cracks or you break your mother's back, or even blowing candles on your cake to get a wish.

This is getting off track. My intent was to explore the power of mentally deciding a thing, sort of like a placebo drug or belief in a thing.

My  Physical Therapist had a saying that was on the wall it said, "If you think you can or you think you can't you're, right." Power of positive thinking, or Faith (for me, and those who are spiritually minded) actually is an active force, percieved clearly and undesputably in retrospect. Or as it is written in the book of Ether, "witness comes after the trial of our faith."

That goes along with my other notion today that strength is important. I had stumbled upon strength unwittingly. But, today it was questioned. "Did my strength fail because my mental choice was not solidly founded? Or, I simply did not believe the consequence was honest. If it were, surely, I would not have faltered."

Summed up it is like saying, if I eat any sugar I will not live happily ever after. When I am starving and offered a doughnut, I realize how silly such a premise is, rather than think  my resolve is weak.