ok, I decided that Even though man's time isn't God's time, I have given Brandall enough time to win me over, but he never did. I have learned that really it is true that when you place faith in something true it is an active force, and makes things happen, miracles. Faith requires overcoming alot of fear, like in the Indiana Jones movie about the leap of faith. but putting alot of faith in something that isn't true, no matter how much fear you overcome it will do no good. Likewise I have put enormous amounts of faith in Brandall to no avail. I'm done.
In conference, there was a talk about how we put up wallsaround our hearts. I guess the idea is to protect something we cherish, but instead it makes thingsharder all-around. The spirit doesn't tear down walls and shout, but asks politely in a whisper to let us in.
Anyway, I thought that in regards to letter that I got. and this video:
Anyway, I have decided that I never really loved Brandall and he knew it, so he divorced me. He was trying to do what was right, and recognising it helps me be free to go after what really matters. I have decided that I really like Nick, and I might be quite a bit scared of him, I want to learn more of him even if it means rejection. Love is worth it.
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