Long December

So, as usual I was singing to myself after putting the kids to bed. While I washed the dishes, I know how mundane, I was singing a counting crows song and it reminded me of how silly I had been. I was working as a field tech for IBM fixing hardware at Boeing Aerospace in Kent/Renton and for a lunch break I visitefy dive shop where somehow we were discussing my intentions for the future, they wondered if my dream was to become a dive bum, or a computer technichian. So, I explained that actually I was just waiting to hear back from Adam Duritz. I had just sent him a demo of my latest songs, and if anyone would get them and see how much potential I had it was him. I always felt a kinship to his music, and he was probably looking for great unsigned artists cause he just had started his new record company, "E Plurbis Unim". Golly, I was convinced, and totally unrealistic. I was SURE that I would be an incredible super star. As I washed dishes and watered plants I sang more and remembered how obsessed I was with Adam Duritz. It was not founded on any reality or was it healthy at all. No one else would like him anyway, until I heard that Jennifer Anniston dated him, and complained that he smelled, nay reaked of cigarette smoke. Then and there, I wrote him off, the whole thing was silly anyway. Next, I reminisced about my drive, my LONG drive from WA to MS with everything I owned in my volvo wagon. STOP. Wait a minute... I just remembered only partially that Robert Woodruff, a fiance, was with me in Mississippi, college age before WA, and he was very disturbed by my insistance on always wanting to listen to counting crows, he bought me "The Forgotten Carols" thinking I would love them so much!!  I eventually did like Jim introducing Morrissey or Brandall thinking I would go crazy about Depeche Mode. I actually reacted a bit adversely to them both at firsy, but now adore them. Anyhow, long story short I was and still am obsessed with Adam Duritz denying it is as pointless as acknowledging it.