morning thoughts

If I caught the errors in AI in things like my 3D scan, my weight, and my blood pressure. I do not doubt that all of those trendy fitness and health video and apps although they meant well, we're sure to fail because, just like auto"correct" sometimes misrepresented what our intentions were. This morning I realized so much of what I was taught was absolutely true, and the trouble all along has not been some conspiracy by pharmaceutical companies, it was bombarding me with the wrong ads and advice. My trouble was not that I was in my 50's and my metabolism was slowing, and dismissing all the seemingly accurate advice turned out to be such a good idea. Through trial and error and testing my own blood sugar levels, though I still cannot explain exactly what was going on. I did discover something that absolutely works, but, it means going against so much of what I was told. I must consume more calories than my body requires to function in the first place, which I discovered the same way I figured out how much sleep I needed, but being consistent and see what my body does. So, my bmr was estimated to be around 1,600 calories, but I followed that belief and nothing worked, it seems that was far too few. But, I assumed the plans assumed that I would not acutely report my consumption because so many of my daily readings were about cravings and how to avoid them. Um, that has Never ever been a problem for me. I trip up in forgetting to eat or trying to not exceed some magic number so I over report.

For multiple days, I have had exact predictions regarding my weight, and I feel confident in saying I finally understand my body. I estimate my bmr to be closer to 2,200 calories per day. So, exceed that and then do exercise to bring the total back to below that...or else my cortisol spikes and I get stuck again in flight of fight mode.

It has been a very very very long journey, and I have take multiple slams to my self-esteem. Actually believing that I was overweight and needed to just deal with that. But, overweight or not I will properly care for MY body in gratitude and simply be content that I Atlantis have figured this out.

P.s. I do not regret all the side quests like cardio, hormones balance, strength training, insulin resistance, etc. Because they all help me understand how a body works according to natural laws, and that alone was monumental in learning what to trust.

calories, not working

Well, counting calories does not work, because I struggle to get just the right amount so, I try many things, or like recently, a program said that I was over weight, so I ate very sparingly but, realized that I didn't reach my basal needs yet, so I just ate crap to reach it, but that reminds me of the deer that were trapped in a town in Colorado, and the town stuffed they regularly with hay, and they ate plenty of food, but ended up dying of starvation or malnutrition because their stomachs were not filled with things their bodies needed.

morning thought

Finally, I found the strength to do what I already thought was right. I suppose now, I will know it is right.

I have ceased entirely from playing mobile games and stopped watching videos at all if it means watching advertisements, and man, among I learning how gullible I was. Life is better without a constant drone in my hear of how I need this or that to be happy.

I feel so happy and liberated now, I can actually focus on life. 

On a side note, it was funny how he took it. I told my husband he probably owed his longevity to video games. Seriously. I feel that way about fitness/exercise. It keeps one from accomplishing what they are alive for, so they live longer.

morning thought

I cannot remember where I heard it, but it was important.

Start each day with prayer and repent.

It was the key to life.

This morning, my thoughts are filled with a trait that I desperately want to repent of. I have this feeling like my ideas are so important for everyone to hear, and top that off with my waning memory the urgency increases, so it seems like I am not listening but blurting and interrupting. I hate it. There are a few things that have helped me:

1) My dad's comment supported the one I had been listening to in my head, "some thoughts and ideas are just for you." And that REALLY helps being so frustrated at my inability to communicate thoughts.

2) Many times, I feel the urge or urgency but, I remain quiet, and every single time, the very thoughts that I had was shared by another. This reminds me that the burden is not solely mine, if something needs to be said, it will be and others need the chance of solidifying ideas through saying them outloud. 

3)My son desperately needs to be uninterrupted and merely listened to, and I learn so much by doing so.

morning thought

So much of "fitness" benefit is placebo. So, if you know what benefit you should expect, your brain can generate it for you.