got it!

I was thinking it nothing significant that I learn through videos, but then it occurred to me the times my dad spoke about the superiority of live performances to recordings, and how movies are all basically lies. Because of what he taught me, I knew that there was more communicated through in person observation than what can be merely recorded. As I thought of it. I thought of waves off of our auditory spectrum, that we're still sensed though not audibly. But, amid those thoughts I realized that I absolutely needed to resharpen my reception of such "waves" which have been greatly dulled through the academic observation of facts that have flown into my being through videos. 

That is why epiricism is so alluring to some people, it is easy to trust what can be thought and knowingly made stronger. Things can assuredly be felt in other ways and strengthened.

I was also taught at a young age why reading the actual scriptures as they are written is important. Story: my sister and I laughingly read a newer translation of the Bible we found at my grandmother's house in Florida. The reason it was so funny was because only parts translated were the stories but not the "spirit" of the words. And hearing Jesus Christ speak in a more common lauguage seemed off...thus, humorous. Likewise, my dad used to be upset by my listening to pop music with spiritual sometimes scriptural words. It made sense to me the same way not being able to play my trombone in sacrament meeting did. Though, I still loved playing it and even the Angel Moroni always has a trumpet in his mouth, and He is on temples!

Everyone learns to discern what surrounds him by different means. I am just glad to be loved enough to have been strengthened as much as I have.

I had an algebra teacher in 9th grade who did silly things like talk to statues. This same teacher taught my parents and older brother, but of all the things he taught me one stands out. He said, "I sincerely hope that one day each of you will be as ignorant as me." It was assuming he knew far more than each of us. It was pondering on what ignorance was that I became grateful. I am extremely thankful to be aware of so much that I don't know, so I can keep growing. Being damned or stopped would be the saddest of things imagine able, not death, like in movies.