take some time?

I really don't like to tke time. I guess cause I always get these images of robbing someone thanks to studying "Rubato" In theory or having a memorable, yet eccentric musicology professor. I'll try to steer clear of remembering Luly or the Golliard, ot for that matter beethoven's immortal beloved or the writtings of Dahlhaus.

I remember for Ken's French horn recital on Haloween I dressed in a powdered wig and hoop dress, calling myself "Lelio" Beethoven's immortal beloved, I am definately immortal, though not an elf. I am of royal descent but not of Isildoor, or what not.

anyway, wanted to take some time before I write more here. a friend pointed out that you never know who will read it. I think it has been my ally (ignorance that is), but now that I have to be careful. I will probably go back to filling up my journlals instead of using the internet. I know that at least I cannot loose my journals. I love clean paper in a book. there is just a feeling about it. *sigh* ok, give me a pen, I'm ready.

I found another book yesterday that wasn't a book that I wrote for my children or for anyone but me, still I sent a bunch of the poetry to Peter Pan, because he knows everything about me, no need to have secrets from him. I keep secrets really well, though. He stll doesn't know one of my biggest secrets, even though I talk about it all the time. I figure if he is wise enough I won't have to say a word. I also have never told anyone about why I think Jim is trying so hard to be friendly to me. Secrets are powerful... mwaaaa haaa! :P as LeAnne would say "Smith's don't spit" Well, I'm no Smith, so I can spit, But Peter Pan tells me not to stick out my tongue unles I plan to use it. hmmmm don't have a comeback for that yet, guess I would just lick him. but from here I can safely say that. oh, who am I kidding. I'm not shy. or reserved or polite, really. ok, that stinks I am aware of the amount of Selfishness that will require my attention and conquering. I want to be respected and revered, not a laughing stock.

I don't think I've ever mentioned on here that I had planned to attend the Univerity of Texas at Dallas majoring in Neuroscience, the next day David called and said that he moved to Plano, so quickly I Txt messsaged my Friend in Nashville, who I was going to meet up with, mostly for a change of thought, then he told me that he was in the process of movng to Dallas. hmmmm. so then I found Utah Boy and thought heck I don't even have to go there, I'll just toss out thoe plans and go somewhere else, and study what? I thought maybe music, I want to go to Vanderbilt for Med School though that hasn't changed. I really liked it there, and I had supercool Neurologist who performed most of my spinal taps, He was really good! Dr. Harold Moses, Jr. I regularly visited the right doctor Dr. Wright in infectious disease untill I was recovered well enough. Enough! now I'm killing Time! I have presents to wrap! and thoughts to ponder!