my Sunday thoughts

I had to record these thoughts before they escape: in Sunday School today someone said that members of the church are figuratively walking around with bulls eyes on their back! That made me feel good. I also had an incident this morning where I was bit by an ant, and I had an allergic reaction and my tongue swelled so much that I couldn't talk. It passed, it reminded me how everything people value in this life passes. There are so many thoughts that I had before but I am really being instructed this time around.

A bit ago I was reflecting on Eve or even Martin Harris and how Satan thought that he did really good, but all his doing was taken in consideration and it is part of the plan. I get so upset because I didn't do antything wrong and my marriage fell apart, it did look like a victory for Satan, but it was known and meant to be. I should be honored that I was valiant enough to endure such a thing unshaken. I got to start over and do better, and now I realise how short and insignificant everything is.

True, I would like to be more attractive, but it will not become a stumbling block for me, and I don't want to be loved for my beauty, but foor my strength. I was most flattered today when a sister in her talk said that I reminded her of Brigham Young Who said, "If you don't want to pray, then Pray untill you do." Cool. I love Brigham Young. I bet he never hought of himself, or what a difference he would make just by saying and being himself. Wow!

What I gained most today from the study of Revelation is how insignificant so much is and how extremely vital eternal perspective is. On person commented that the Iron Rod or "Word of God" as spoken of in 1Nephi didn't save anyone. the spacious building still got them. We live in such a building where sincerity is mocked on every side and even those who tste of God's love will fall away. I cannot say that I will not, but I will say that right now I am committed to staying true to what I find to be true, I'll trust God to handle the rest and in the end the "Good" guy will win the war, even if he looses a battle or two.

I just talked on the phone. I didn't talk very well, but I expect that with time it will improve as does everthing. I just need to focus on what I can do, right now. And develop all kinds of new traits that I have the oppertunity to right now.

I think that I am just me and can be appreciated as such, I just need to find someone who will appreciate that.

Today we were encouraged to keep a gratitude journal, and magically, we will notice an improvement in our lives. hmm, I bet the improvement is our perspective.