What I wanted to do was share something that I read today, but I can't find it. Basically Today we focus on Learning, or relearning about the eternal significance of Families, not unusual in an LDS church, but we used the bible alone to support it, whichpointed out a few things that everyone finds significant about families, and it made clear that I had not done anything wrong, I just lost a little battle in the eernal war against families, it will only make me wiser.
On Saturday, in the Temple, it really miss Brandall asit always does, but a thought, totally unexpectedcame to me as I watch my parents be the witness couple. True it was usually Brandall and I and wwe acted the part better. There appeared to be a greater love for me, and I for hom than I usually see portrayed, but it dawned on me that Brandall was right in thinking that he wasjust asteeping stone, cause hewas, and it doesn't matter or seem but an instant, everyone knowsthat I would go back to Brandall in an instant, so it is a blessing that he doesn't want me, though I have no clue why not. I wasthinking of Nicholas and how I really wanted to be with him, and woldn't have to act at all. Though several people did comment and make notice of how in love we were, etc. They were probably mistaking outward appearances for reality, as was I.
The Scripture was one in Ephesians where it said that Husbands were commanded to lovetheir wives. no one madeBrandall marry me, it was no easy matter either, manylabors had to beperformed, then three children later he just dumps me. I was reassured that all it was proper for me to do is forgive, He will be held accountable for his stewardship. I really wish I could help him to see, and just erase it all, but at the same time i know things will be better for me in the future, and he will be a tiny speck of memory oneday, only now it hurts and takes forever, rightly so.
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