morning thought

I realized that I shouldn't have ignored things or written them off because they didn't work at the time. It would be like using a butter knife as a hammer and then saying it is useless. When the time comes to butter your bread it's use will become clear. Such it is with the exercise I revisited this morning. I was amazed at how easy it was when approached with a different intent. It had become the sound of tinkling brass to me to hear people say, "you have to work out differently for the menopausal body." Well, it stands to reason that if a woman differs from a man then a woman also differs from a girl. I used to actually be upset that old woman didn't just try to look like old woman and they obsessed about looking like teens. I thought it was stupid, actually. But, when my father said that my Grandmother never grew up and she used to think that she was a teenager. It clicked, "oh, me too!" I am older. Additionally my mother explained that  I could likely not even be able to do something due to my disability.  It is true. All my life I pretended that I could be just like everyone else, but I can't even be like I once was or thought I would be, and that is ok. There truly are so many other things I actually do right. It was a little off the cheek comment someone breathed about me to me that I didn't give myself enough credit that caused an epiphany.  My mind and body have been severely limited to the point it was said I would likely never again walk unaided, but, I did, and that alone is no doubt a miracle!!! And something I take for granted. I don't care how my body is able to do the things it does (like make perfect children) but it does and it is enough!