a researching truth

I love truth, wherever I find it. I found it studying history in the words of a teacher in Iceland who commented on how different perspectives record the same thing, so it is by comparing and eventually the similarities stand out and you have your truth. I sort of kind of with less sincerity  explained a similar truth when writing a paper in college about moments being recorded accurately are bound to repeat making Shakespeare applicable regardless of the era because he mostly captured truths.

I often notice brilliance in my past actions upon reviewing them. At the time, it was more or less a coincidence. Then, I realized a great principle that is necessary when discerning truths online. There are almost too many influencers all influencing, that one knows not who to believe...reminds me of what Joseph Smith said about religion in his time. There are people who I tend towards and want to believe, but then, I try out their words (plant the seed and see what grows) and realize I was again deceived. So, I sort of "rage quit" but, something deep inside convinced me to all things spoken are untrue just because the ones I hoped to be true were false.

I watched someone again, today, applying a system I learned from doing geological research. Before I accept a truth into the wall I was building, I needed a valid source. So. I would reach deep and ask myself if and why I would believe this, and I ended up believing the sincerity of one so called expert and it so happened that I previously had found the things which she taught to be true, meaning, they were things which I had done and benefited from without purposing it. It was a truth and currently I am hoping and living on one that seems totally counter intuitive, but it has had evidence to prove it true.  It makes me think of the way Joseph Smith said that he knew it and he knew that God knew that he knew it, and then despite anything seeming farfetched it was true.

I was fasting for over three days, and then suddenly I felt better, like breaking through the wall.  I thought I had made a metabolic switch, so I decided to go for a run, but then, my muscles pretty much locked up and I feared making it home before I died. When I got home my blood sugar had spiked higher than ever before! And my keytones did nothing. At that point I was miffed and rage quit. I ate. I decided all this special eating and extensive workouts was stupid! Then, yesterday I decided that my body was malnutioned and I decided to stop it all and care for myself.  I over ate, or so I thought. I began a regimen of multivitamins and strength training, that was sensible and maintainable. We had a Halloween party and I let myself have too much candy. I was all about loving myself. I already started sleeping better, previously. As I did my daily weight check, fearing what my stupid choice to splurge was undoubtedly going to have done to my weight. I had actually lost weight, whereas previous days of working hard and starving I had gained weight, not alot, but over time it would add up.

My new routine includes an hour of easy easy stationary biking while I work on Icelandic vocabulary, then drinking ACV with my morning water for breakfast, fish and vegetable stew for lunch, and snacking until 7pm however I feel inclined. I also will randomly do exercise band training throughout the day. I feel good about this! Without knowing why,  or even needing to. I think this will prove successful after being consistent for 12 weeks (until the end of 2024).