numb

I was thinking today about how I assume others care for eachother, but they do not really. Perhaps I am projecting my feelings on others, than was when I realized that I am a bit unfeeling because I have to be. If I cared as much as I suppose others do by nature, I would be a total wreck. My first born children and the man I loved entirely and promised to be with forever are in another part of the country. I simply could not handle the day to day life if I was not able to sort of turn off my feelings and be a tad numb to them. It effects my relationships with others.