free to choose wrong

The thing I will publicly consider today is the insightful comment made by a stranger today when they explained how they knew that they were loved.

I was a bit upset by theunderstanding that God could not actually force anyone to do what was right. I finally made peace with the fact that it was likely my wishes and prayers that caused pain and heartache for others, but it is now rediculous to even consider it. Because I felt so much guilt for sort of praying for a sunny day when the farmers were in need of rain. So, I got my sunshine while they withered and perished. It made me feel terrible for thinking it was what I,needed to be happy. Well, so I have been praying so hard to try to make up for wanting a thing for my happiness that might hurt anothers, then this comment helped today. " The Lord chastened those he loves." How did that help? As I was praying for something to help any I thought my desires had indirectly hurt, I got this response: "what is it you expect me to do?" Think of the scene from "Bruce Almighty" where even with God's powers he cannot bend another's will. That was the sort of way I felt about my praying that someone be fixed back to what they were, like it was my fault anyway is crazy, but people have their agency, they always do. Sure, God can prefer a way over another or even command is to obey, but he cannot force us. But, the thing someone pointed out is that God does love us so much that he will try to chasten us if we do not behave the way that is best for us. So, by being corrected sharply, might seem harsh it is a way for us to see the correct way. Or way that we should have chosen. This will change my prayers. Although, I do not want to seem mean spirited, I do pray that if my prayers were wrong or caused anyone harm that they/we will be chastened and be able to know the way that God wants things wether or not they are chosen.

This person said in their testimony that because we have agency, at times God allows is to choose a way contrary to the way he would prefer, but ultimately. He will chastened and let us know what we should have done to be the best possible us we can be.

On a similar note, I think that I have been told what to do, but allowed to make my own choice, but, I did kit choose the path that would be the best for me and so my trial is that until I pick the right path, I will get sicker and sicker until I die. It gas already been made known, it is no secret that I ought to be alive and it is the goal, so, I must obey God, my life depends on it.