Divorce

I stayed when I was miserable because I made a vow to never divorce again. Ihad children as an incentive, but after yesterday I had to pray a whole lot! I even reconsulted my patriarchal blessing. The talks yesterday focused on receiving personal revelation specifically two people shared personal experiences where they came to situations where logic would not work and a choice needed to be made. For a moment I felt glad to have such a situation in my life whereas others might not be able to grasp the extreme importance of believing and calling on a greater power. It was interesting to me(and a confirmation) that people create situations and opportunities for themselves and "God" really is not waiting for us to ask which choice is right, but He will help us understand how to navigate such situations. As I read my blessing I was told that my prayers would be heard and answered and that I am loved although I might not understand God does and my biggest trial of all is to learn (KNOW) how to proceed, because I am promised that my end goal will be accomplished. From that I can infer if I wasn't also warned that accordingly I need to have an eternal perspective. I used to think it meant being patient if things do not seem like they would work cause they will. But, instead I see how damming making a vow like, "I will never divorce again." is. It is as if I vowed to never repent again because I was baptized.

Eternal perspective brings me back to my little Salt Lake Temple metaphor. It is better to tear down and start over while I can before it is too late, if a thing is going to last it needs to be perfect.

This morning I was going to leave the house without my glasses. I was still by home, but Mary was in the car. Eventually, it was because Mary was in the car that I decided to go back inside despite telling Joseph not to let anyone inside and I locked the door but left the keys with Mary. Joe let me in and I got my glasses. I can see fine to drive and I have another pair in the car anyhow, but I care enough to see well especially when driving with a child in the car. Do I need to explain what that has to do with divorce? Jesus spoke in parables so that only those who understand will.
    I have more to think about before I express such thoughts. They are potent and need to be diluted...