What do you want?

Now, there is a question that I have been asked countless times in my life, but I still do not have an answer. I ought to have said and ultimate answer. I can always think of things I would like to have, but those must cause the thing I desire, right? Yeah, I thought so, too. All mankind desires to be happy. Uh, I know I'd rather be happier if given a choice, but just being happy doesn't do as much for me as I'd suspect.

Then, I morphed my desire into love which can be coaxed out and tried on with a cheap imitation. But, after realizing that goal was too easy and not profitable, I evolved being attractive into being Godlike. But, really, no ammount of goodness is going to meet me unknown desire.

I determined that it was neither physical or spiritual alone, but a combination of both.

I learned at a young age that there are things which I do not enjoy that will eventually make me happier. So, falsely, I assumed (theorized) that if I really didn't want to do something, then that was a good indication that I found something good.

I thought that meant that I should Marry Nick, and he was very good and a man of Integrity. I lost him...I'm falling asleep.I don't know what the heck I was talking about. I better come back after I wake up.