Maybe you should be concerned

I bet you would think that after that long treacherous battle with myself I would tell you if I could do it over, I would realize I was good enough before it's too late, but that is not the case. I love me, and it is largely because I held such unbelievably difficult standards for myself when I could. I see women who look better than I do now, but instead of thinking, they are too hard on themselves, I think I'm pretty and they are prettier than me. I think, " she looks ok for now, but I hope she is not satisfied, because this is my shape when it has been neglected for a decade, if they do not do anything about it now, it will be too late later and they will be hideous in another 10 years.

I realize body types and situations are all different, but potential for looking great is always present. With a few snapchat filters I can be gorgeous, so I can be made to look better than I do, and I really should be trying to look my best my future self may depend on it. For example:one cannot go through multiple child birth and inactivity for a decade without some serious consequences, I accept that and realize the havoc wrecked on my body was unavoidable, and I still appear fine just a bit heavier and I loath how it feels but as the saying goes, "God grant me to patience to endure what I cannot change and the power to change what I should." Or something like that. Then, it is added, "Lord, grant me the wisdom to know the difference."

I love me now because I didn't love me then.