Just a thought worth having

i ask, what good is it to have a thought if you don't share it. I already got the use out of it when I thought it, So I am going to jot it down here for later use, maybe my own. It is a valuable lesson. I was thinking of lyrics for a song I wanted to write about how everyone I love has been put into the spotlight, which means they are fully loved already by the time I am introduced to their likes. I think I would like very much to meet someone no one else has noticed, but this is the very thoughts that I had which led me or rather whiplashed me to Brandall.

Now, I realize that it was against several of my promises to myself but most importantly it was agaigst the advice that has strangely been given to me one day when I annonounced that I was to be sealed to Robert Woodruff in the Manti Temple! I was warned to be sure that I love the whole and not just parts. She told me a story about meeting her husband, but first getting advice because she was already in love with someone, though she knew it was the wrong person. Her bishop explained the happening. He said that the person that she loved possesed certain traits and if another posessed these traits she would not love them just because he wasn't the perfectly right fit for her. Anyway she advised me to becarefull because we play tricks on ourself when we fall in love and don't even seem to notice other things.

I didn't knowingly disregard her advice, though I honestly didn't think I'd ever find a reason to need it. I was going to Marry Robert who I was in love with because he was so wise and good, and he obviously loved me. He gave me a heart! It was such a beautiful sentiment, only it perplexed me that his parents kept saying that I did not love him. It was true that I was not attracted to him, but one day when he came home from work (midnight shift) I was playing the piano just waiting patiently to see him ( he would make me breakfast, too! Breakfast burritos I still remember the whole visit) he didn't even sa hello he just kissed me and I knew that I loved him. So, breaking things off after I had a ring and a temple date set was hard, How different my life would have been.

Now, I see that if I had heeded that advice I would have saved myself a whole lot of heartache, and I'd not be so tangled in this web. So, I hope it helps someone else. My advice added is merely a suggestion, make sure you love everything about your sweetheart, there is a whole lot that you won't just naturally know either. Decide to love the things you discover, the lives of your born or unborn children depend on this.

As for me? I'd most likely make the exact same mistake over again, believing I could change things somehow. Seriously, there were lots of things that I learned were important to me that I never knew. It's kind of funny, those things Brandall wasn't I made sure Nick was, but neither is entirely what I need, though admittedly, Brandall feels closer. But Nick is my mind's choice. they don't agree on that, yet. Though the can find a common ground of "none of the above." I'm really lost, maybe i ought to review every bit and morsel of good advice I've had looking for clues.