Thursday, October 16, 2025

what I have been up to?

I am determined to figure this weight thing out,  and in the process I have gained the perspective that gaining weight and loosing muscle is a part of life, like growing taller. My purpose is to be the healthiest, not the skinniest.

I have seen others who seem to have figured out how to loose fat, but the result looks horrible, and that was the advice that my grandmother had given me, years and years ago.

My latest solution is to just be patient and ultimately, be healthy, even if it means size gain. For my hormones to be messed up, there would have to be another ideal that it was deviating from. I believe that though different than before, and what compared to societal ideals might be screwed up is actually exactly fine. And as I decide on my habit/goals I ask myself if I am willing to commit to this for the rest of my life.

The best thing I heard in a long time was said last night regarding dressing in crazy outfits. Someone said. "It is really all about confidence. A coworker showed up today looking extremely odd...in a crazy shirt. But, they pulled it off." I suspect that is how it works for us an our body types and health. There is no one particular way that looks and functions superior. It is more about making it work, and having a purpose.

So, lately, I have been trying to come up with a daily routine that will give me purpose each day and ultimately give me the confidence I now lack to be able to accomplish whatever resets me.