Reincarnation

Figured it out!

I was watching a video of Aurora singing in the woods as the audio track and the visual was of Rebekah and Isaac from the Bible.

At first I saw it and if I didn't know better I would think it was written for their story, it fit so perfectly, I was thinking more deeply and wondered if we all lived once upon a dream, so I got it. That was why so many people jumped to the conclusion that they must have lived before, it would explain so much...

I just need to include this song :

I Lived In Heaven (LDS/Mormon Primary Children's …: http://youtu.be/v6_EqtXhxo8

It tells the things every Mormon child knows (hence from the mouth of Babes, huh?)

Just wait

Today, I am not exactly sure what purpose such a thought has but it will serve as one of the blocks that create me.

Young and carefree me, in college, had the choice several times to actually decide if my happiness was dependant on physical attraction or intellect. And it was a simple choice. Though, years later I wonder if I was right. As everyone does around 40.

Rather than tell you what I think I will tell you what made me think. I considered being obsessed with a couple of boys, but I had promised to only date members of the church, so in deciding not to persue that love, I chose a love of knowledge. Which it seemed no one else did.

Later, I realized that I had merely been impatient. Now,  guys that I had not been interested in at the time because of their interests, were now interested in the sorts of things that at the time I would have been so content, but the very thing I ignored, the fact that they were attractive is no longer an issue, and so now, it is literally too late. I had been momentarily convinced that it was never too late, but clearly, it is too late to consider if I would be happy to love for appearance. Or would I? I thought that it was not wise to love for appearance, because it was too temporary, so it was better to love for intellect, but, now I see that with enough time anyone could reach a level of maturity that embraces knowledge. So, instead of choosing the better, I just chose the constant and made a choice that excluded and limited myself, or in other words, I denied myself the possibility if falling in love with someone for their body, or money or other things that would have only changed a temporary circumstance.

Never rest on your laurels

Just as sure as I am that there will be glorious and content moments where all is right in the world, this reverie will pass, as it should, or else we would forget the peril of others.

Refreshing!

The most fufilling moments I have ever spent are those in which I consider Jesus Christ.

Children

I was thinking a lot about how Abraham is known as father Abraham, but did not actually have many children. God had promised him that his posterity would be too many to number, ok. We all review the lesson of how God always keeps his promises regardless if we think it is possible. After all he went through, he still loved God, and gave him a rod sorry, that last bit was sleep writting and I kept it to amuse myself, much like my sleep conversation recorded  on tape when I argued with my teacher about Rhode Island and the electoral college, something I know nothing about. Interesting. I wonder. Mom and Dad said that I listed the US presidents in order while out of it in the hospital. So, my subconcious actually learned something from that Tuesday Thursday, after lunch history lecture can't remember any of my history professors names, but I loved that class. My western civilizations class at Ole Miss really changed my life. I remember the guy had the oddest accent. Findland maybe, hmm... Anyhow, Abraham proved worthy of being called a friend of God. Cool, huh? God friended him!

This is what stumps me. As a gift, and seen as the greatest reward and blessing? Posterity.

If ever I wondered the value of children in the eternal scheme of things (which seem dominated by ego) I know now that they are esteemed the highest gift Heavenly Father can give you.

unfinished thought

Where did the idea originate that upon sight a man and woman fall in love?

I really like literature where I find answers to such questions, but I do not know what author I would trust. Perhaps it will be unwittingly answered in an accidental observation.

Loki

I was thinking a lot about Loki this morning and how he is heralded as a sort of savior, but also brought so much vile and disgust to Asgard because of the way he saved it. He used dishonesty and trickery, to rescue. What I resolved from it was that the end does not justify the means.

So, my methods for fooling children to do what was best when I babysat them was wrong, as was my notion of finding a way to slip a drug or inception in an others mind, although, my desired results would be good, if the best truely happens on it's own anyway... Oh, but, no one was going to be able to save the gods anyway (acording to Morsel mythology) The reason Loki could even save them was because of his unique lineage. It enabled his to both be a part of them and yet not be, so he had insights unlike anyother. I think it was part of his person. His genetic make up actually allowed him to do what no one else could.

According to what I read yesterday, he had the makings of a good leader, he only made a tiny mistake in telling others what he did. I read, now it is a fault to believe everything you read (from a song) but, this was credible, it said that a truely great success is getting your result, but making it seem like it had another origin. Well, Loki messed up in seeking recognition for what he did, so instead of just doing and quietly saving the gods he told of the way he did so. And so making known his brilliance and cunningness, a thing of Giants.

A thing that troubles me is that Odin is the son of both Giant and god himself, according to Morsel stories of creation, which is a truly brilliant attempt to explain how man and earth came to be. So many things I had assumed unique to Mormonism finds a place in this mythology. (More thought required here, so I part ways with you, reader...)

One reason I love Cinderella

Regardless, her beauty and goodness is something she carries with her, so although to get what she wants she has to have things like a pretty dress, etc. It does not define her.

Unrelated

I do not know how to tie these two things together, but I cannot decide which one to write (dwell on) about.

1) the similar concept on Sophia the First and Jessie. It is that there is more than is obvious.

2) the warning I was given by a lady when she attributed her current misery to praying for a thing that she thought was what she wanted.

Bedtime

It is so difficult. Joseph keeps getting out of bed to talk to me. I know he us just trying to Eeek out another moment, but he said,
"Mom, there is something I want to talk to you about. It is a long word, and it is about Jesus, can I come talk to you about it? The word is crucifixion." I cannot tell him to go back to bed, so instead we talk about Jesus.                                                                                                                                                                                                              

Love is the power to overcome

I just keep thinking about how humble Christs beginning was and yet how much he accomplished. I think it is a good lesson for us they even if we think ourselves too less for a thing. If we continue on in, we can literally accomplish anything.

Worthy

I have a recent episode of "the 100" in my head where the president at Mt. Weather says that if he used people unwillingly to be able to go outside he would not be worthy to do so. This idea finds application all over, like cheating to get ahead. Would you really be ahead knowing you did not honestly deserve to be there. It is how I can understand justice and a loving creator. In a book by CS Lewis he depicted the people in hell visiting others and feeling so uncomfortable in any other place than the one they belonged.

Get caught in this web

You are a product of the choices you made, so try to pinpoint the effects of turning your head one way or the other. Now, done? Who you are is a product of reading this.

The real vilans

If it has been said before, I missed it, so I feel obliged to say something, so that it can be on te record.

For the record, good has an opposite called evil, and every young child knows what is good and what is evil. Through our teen years it seems less clear, like a line drawn on a map, as we get closer it is harder to differentiate. So we need to step back, or accept guidance from someone with a better perspective.

I wanted it said that too often the bad guy or evil is easy to avoid if idenified, but what happens is we start to gain over confidence saying, "I would never do that." And we can keep the ills cemented in our minds as children, but we never even see the true vilans coming because it is usually disguised as a good thing, like diet and exercise, or beauty, or intelligence they are things we learn are good so we accept them when they are offered , but we have not been warned of the evil of overdoing it. And so many good things have the potential that once they get their foot in the door, to become addictive. We relinquish our will to a good thing which is actually the evil that will destroy us.

My son, Gavin, excitedly told me about a lesson he learned about a piece of yarn, to him it was so wonderful and made sense to the .point that he had to excitedly share it with me by wrapping it around my fingers. Sure, it was just yarn, nothing to be worried about, huh? But, as he wrapped it, combined I could not use my hand or break free and my hand was turning blue! That was his lesson, we are not trapped by obvious evil, but little by little we are eventually trapped by harmless things, I am saying Good things done outside of moderation.

Psychedelic drugs

I watched a docummentary on psychedelic drugs because I was fascinated by the premise which included Seretonin and Neurons which always fascinates me.

At first, I was thninking how this sounded like the fictional drug in the movie "Limitless" and we see how that ends, still I liked the immediate nature of drugs to control perception, and it need not be habitual. Infact, LSD is used to cure other addictions but does not cause them, and many great thinkers had been so enlightened, and then warned their neighbors.

Just when I decided a one time change of ability to percieve would be entirely safe, I also realized the same thing can be gradually achieved line upon line thus changing the person gradually and lastingly.

None of the scare tactics seemed to steer me clear of my desire to see differently, until this morning, I realized that anything that assumes control is not good. Drugs, over the counter, or illegal have dramatic effect and do for the body things it could do slowly for itself, but we do not have the time. Take labor and delivery for instance... Why did I choose to suffer "natural childbirth" when drugs were right there and offered to eliviate any pain. Perhaps, such drugs create a different sort of dependance, one that keeps is from evolving a way to cope without it. Even the weakest can endure and survive with drugs.

We always see suffering as something that does not belong and needs to be removed, while everything around us suggests that conflict and struggle, um let's call it opposition, exists for our good. Interesting word good. For example, we could not have anything good unless we had bad, so let's not drug away anything we do not like.

We do not like to be fat, so we like the idea of a "skinny pill" that will allow us the benefit without the effort. Such dependence will not last and either we will not prize being skinny as a reward for hard work, sort of like liposuction. If you look skinny, and so attract a mate, and have fat childen, now you have handed down a problem that might never existed. Likely, they will do what their parents did, securing a future for a drug to always be needed to maintain what was started.

Ok, J'ai du travallie...hay, Nicholas trabajo, etc.